Dear You,

Kakadating ko lang dito sa Batangas para sa family gathering namin bukas pero ikaw parin laman ng puso’t isipan ko. Nag-enjoy ako kanina sa date natin. Naaalala ko pa nga nung nag-paalam ako sa papa mo kahapon. Sa sobrang kaba ko pakiramdad mo naliligo na ako sa pawis pero nung pumayag yung papa mo sobrang laki ng ngiti na naiwan sa mukha ko.

Natutuwa ako na mas nakikilala kita ngayon, natutuwa ako kahit na hindi pa tayo kasi ibig sabihin, ginagamit mo yung oras mo para kilalanin ako, para sakin magandang bagay yun, kasi ibig sabihin nun, pinag-iisipan mo talaga.

Ang saya ng araw na ‘to. Syempre sa Bonifacio High tayo nagdate kasi yun yung pinakamalapit sa inyo. Syempre dahil umaga ako available, nag lunch date tayo Itallianni’s, syempre pinaghandaan ko talaga ‘tong first date natin kaya sinigurado kong espesyal. Syempre ayaw mong umorder kasi nahihiya ka, pero di naman kaylangan e, kasi mahal kita. Pagkatapos nating kumain pumunta tayo sa fully booked kasi sinabi mong mahilig kang mag-basa ng libro. Para sa akin yun yung paborito kong ginawa natin. Alam mo yung, naka-upo tayo dun sa mga bakanteng upuan, magkaharap tayo tapos kunwari nagbabasa ako ng libro pero sa totoo lang, tinititigan lang kita. Ewan ko, ang sarap mo lang tignan nung mga oras na yun. Lahat ng atensyon mo nasa libro na halos nawawala ka na sa mundong to, seryoso ka habang nagbabasa na parang bawat salita na nakasulat dun iniintindi mo talaga. Ganun yung pag-mamahal na gusto kong magkaroon tayo. Pag tayong dalawa ang magkasama meron tayong sariling mundo at lagi tayong masaya at pareho tayong seryoso sa relasyon natin at lahat ng bagay na ginagawa natin dapat iniintindi natin.

JL, MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA. PASENSYA NA PERO HINDI NA YAN MAGBABAGO KAYLAN MAN.

Alam mo bang simula nung nagustuhan kita, wala na akong ibang nakita, na tuwing nakakakita ako ng ibang babae, nagmumukha silang ipis na ayokong pansinin.

Handa ako sa mga hinaharap ng kung anong meron tayo. Maghihintay ako at magtiyatyaga kasi mahal kita. 

Katelebabad kita ngayon at hindi mo alam na parang nasa langit na ako ngayon. Kanina hinatid ulit kita tulad kahapon, nung isang araw at nung isang araw pa, nakakatuwa yung papa mo, mabait pala, dahil alam kong daddy’s girl ka, sya talaga kinatakutan ko e, mabuti na lang mabait pala. 

Simpleng bagay lang ang tawagan pero sobra ang epekto nito sa puso ko. mahal kita. sabi ko. Mahal kita. narinig mo ba?

Nung natanggap ko yung load ko tinawagan kita, pag espesyal kasi ang tao, di uso ang unli, bakit ako magtitipid? Oo, di yun streetwise pero bakit naman ako magpapakastreetwise para sa taong mahal ko? 

Meron kang post 2 minutes ago, eto yun O, :

Today is a fairy tale. Seriously. From this day onward I will start believing in fairy tales. You, you have made my day today and you don’t know how much you made my heart flutter when you asked me whether it’ll be alright for you to ask me out. I asked you how long you were willing to wait and you didn’t say anything. Instead you drew the infinity sign on my palm and that answer was already more than enough. I couldn’t hold my smile much longer and I knew I was already blushing so I was thankful whenever you looked down on the ground and let me calm down. You are a very special boy and who knew that my wish would come true when I only wished for it days ago. God must be on my side. Right now, I’m staring happily at what you’ve drawn on my hand and I feel very lucky.

I guess it’s time to introduce you to my followers so here we go.
Dear followers, the mystery dude I have been speaking about for the past two days is Patrick Isaac Reyes, a one of a kind human being that I will surely treasure forever.

Did I mention that he accompanied me home? Yeah, he did and It really made me feel safe. You all know about my complaints about going home right? Because the streets I walk on is really scary since I usually arrive late and it’s already dark. Today is the first time any guy had accompanied me home. I actually said no thanks but he insisted and said that he had to make sure I was safe because I he haven’t had a chance to formally ask me out yet. The jeepney ride was silent though I prefer it that way, the both of us were overwhelmed with the idea that it might turn into a daily habit, him accompanying me home. We sat silently beside each other and I watched his hand on his lap and so much did I want to tangle my hand with his. It’s been an hour since he left but I can still smell his musky perfume and I didn’t want it to disappear. We walked a little bit and rode another jeepney but this time we were able to talk, after that was the scary way home, vagrant was starting to cluster around and I felt him scoot closer to me as we walked and then slowly holding my hand waiting if I’d complain and when I didn’t he held it tighter and I felt safer than I used to. When we got to the house I asked him if he wanted to come in and he said yes. When we got it I introduced him to my father and my brother who were both busy watching some game on TV and well as I went in the kitchen to get Patrick something to drink, I heard my father interrogate him. After a while, when he left my father smiled at me and told me that he liked Patrick and that he’d be a great boyfriend. I smiled knowing that my father approved of Patrick.

Ay, nakalimutan ko bang banggitin na inenterrogate ako ng tatay nya at na nakapunta na ako sa bahay nya? Hehe, pero oo, at tinanong ako ng tatay nya ng ilang tanong tulad ng ‘Manliligaw ka?’ ‘Sigurado ka ba?’ ‘Anong gusto mong gawin ko pag linoko mo anak ko?’

Astigin din naman ang tatay nya kaya hindi ako madyadong kinabahan pero grabe parin yung takot ko nun kasi hindi naman ako handa para dun e. Pero okay na rin, maganda ng alam ng magulang niya, diba?

Kanina pagkatapos ng lunch inaayos mo na yung gamit mo para sa afternoon subjects at naisipan kong ayusin na rin yung akin, pagkatapos tinabihan kita, nag-usap tayo tungkol sa maraming bagay at bigla kong tinanong ‘Pag niligawan kita, sasagutin mo ba ako?’ Napayuko ka at parang napangiti, hindi mo ko sinagot pero hindi na kita pinilit. Hindi naman sa gusto kitang asarin, iniisip ko lang kung sasagutin mo ba ako ng diretso. Dahil hindi ka sumagot, ako nalang yung sumagot para sayo: ‘Ah, siguro hindi no.’ Sabi ko at tumingin ka sakin na nakakunot yung noo ‘Syempre kikilalanin mo pa ako bago ka magdedesisyon’ tapos tumango ka. Hindi ko napigilan at nagtanong pa ako ulit ‘E pano nga pag niligawan kita. Magpapaligaw ka?’ Napangiti ka at sinabing ‘Ba’t puro ganyan yung tanong mo.’ Edi sinagot ko yung totoong rason ‘Kasi iniisip kong ligawan ka.’ Nahiya ako kaya napatingin ako sa sahig ganun din pala yung ginawa mo. Nung tinignan na kita ulit nakangiti ka tapos bigla mong kinagat yung labi mo at nagpipigil ng ngiti, napayuko ulit ako tapos sumagot ka ‘Oo, magpapaligaw ako, ba’t hindi, wala namang masama dun a.’ Tinignan kita at seryoso ka na ‘E gano ka ba katagal ligawan?’ tinanong ko ‘Depende, gaano katagal ka ba handang maghintay?’ Ngumiti ako at sinulatan yung palad mo ng infinity sign. ‘Cheesy’ sabi nya pero namumula na sya.

JL, Eto na. Handa na ako at mukha namang handa ka na, wala ng urungan, totoo na to at pangako na hindi kita bibiguin. Pag sinagot mo ako, mamahalin kitang tunay at hinding hindi kita pababayaan.

Meron syang post kaninang hapon.

Eto:

I am afraid to fall. I’m afraid because I’m not sure if this person I like will be there to catch me. I know it’s a lot to wish for: Him to like me. But what can a desperate heart do? I did not even see this coming and now I’m so sure about my emotions. I can’t seem to get him off my mind. I can’t stop thinking of his dark brown eyes, his curved lips, his angelic smile and his shyness whenever I’m caught staring at him. Yep, he’s perfect but there’s a lot more than his physical looks. Whenever I talk to him, I get a piece of his mind, I get fascinated with how much he could share how much he could open up to me. I get fascinated with how much trust he gives me and how much he shows me that he’s unlike others. 

Desire? It’s a funny thing to say, ‘I desire to be with him’ Again feeling silly with saying it but it’s true, He have shown me that he’s someone that is worth fighting for, worth telling my parents about and worth spending a lifetime with.

He really is different, He had proven that in so many ways and in so many times. No matter how hard to admit it, whoever takes his breath away is lucky because I’m sure that he’ll treasure you and love you. that he’ll make you feel like a princess and would give you much attention. You are so lucky that I wish it would be me.

Hay. Nakakatuwa na meron ka palang pagtingin sa akin pero ba’t ganun. Ba’t ang manhid mo? Obvious naman na iba yung pagtrato ko sayo bukod sa ibang babae. Hirap na nga akong ipakita na mahal kita pero alam ko na ginagawa ko ang lahat ng makakaya ko para ipakita sayo yun kaya sana isang araw makita mo rin kasi hindi naman ako susuko. 

JL, Mahal kita at salamat. Salamat na pinost mo yang dalawang post na yun kasi nagkaroon na ako ngayon ng lakas ng loob na ligawan ka. Totoo na yun. Sigurado na talaga. Pangako. 

Ako, na si Patrick Isaac Reyes ay nangangako na liligawan na talaga kita. Promise.

Totoo nga, nagpaplano na nga ako kung anong gagawin ko e, basta kaylangan mapapangiti ka talaga. 

Alam mo kung anong nagpaganda sa araw ko? Ikaw. Natuwa naman ako sa post mo sa tumblr mo, hindi ko ineexpect pero ganun pala tingin mo sa akin - sana nga ako yun - sana di ako assuming. 

Eto yung post:

So there’s this guy in school, let’s call him Peter(his name starts with letter P) and well, I have a strong feeling towards him, like he’s someone who I’d like to be more than friends with. :”> It’s really embarrassing to say it, I feel like a silly girl having a crush on him. He’s pretty much like a school hottie, everyone admired him and well, everyone wanted him. Everywhere in campus his name floats. He was ‘THE’ guy and well I feel like just another girl that is head over heels for him. So, Peter, who I have known since forever but haven’t talked to became one of the highlights of this school year. It was really unexpected how he came to my life, as far as I remember we were just two students that have acquainted and would bump around the campus halls sometimes but that’s as far as I imagined it, never would I have thought that seeing each other on the halls would take us to the next level.

I do not know how to give a name to this ‘attraction’ towards him but it’s really funny how I like him. I’ve never thought I’d like someone and there he was being all cute and funny and now I’m close to thinking I’m in love. I don’t know how to explain it but it feels like everything with him feels natural, me waiting for him to get to school, which is really long since he usually comes late, me talking to him during breaks or whenever the teachers are not around and me just laughing at his silliness. He had really made me smile a lot and had made tons of my day. He became pretty much my everyday life, a day with him not around sucked and a lot to deal with.

One thing’s for sure, no matter how many guys come and try to ask me out, my answer will always be no, hoping, wishing that one of these days, he’ll be ‘that’ guy. The guy who makes me fall, makes me feel love and makes me happy all the time.

I guess it seems like a wishful thinking, maybe he’s not looking for a girlfriend, maybe all he sees in me is friendship but I am still hoping that one day it could change or if he isn’t thinking those things then I hope he’d do something to help me out in finding out where our mutual understanding takes us. Surprisingly, I really like him and I hope I get some sign to find out if he likes me back.

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Off to my piano lesson. I hope he’s having a great day, he told me he’s going swimming with his cousins this weekend. It really is funny how much I like him. :”>

Ayun, meron lang naman akong dalawang rason kung bakit ko naisip na ako to:

Una, pangalan daw nung ungas na yun nagsisimula sa letter P, pangalan ko Patrick.
Pangalawa, Saturday niya pinost yan, kahapon, at nagswimming kami ng mga pinsan ko at sinabi ko yun sa kanya nung friday.

O diba? Ngayon, hindi na ko nagseselos sa Carlos na yun. E, sa totoo lang kaya lang naman ako pikon na pikon at selos na selos dun kasi linigawan na nya si JL e. Ngayon, kahit sobrang nakakapagod ang trip namin, masaya ako kasi napawi ito ng mga salitang sinabi ni JL.